Fan Jinghua: Scholarly Exchange

　　Scholarly Exchange

"Please be assured that your unique proposal is doubtlessly acceptable;
So far you are the only scholar dealing the visual…
By the way, could I ask something personal, purely out of my curiosity,
How long have you been intrigued by this topic?"
"Thank you for the note of appreciation. The proposal is developed
From my dissertation, which I hope to finish by the end of this year.
I have been in it for about four years."
"Ah, four years! I have also been saturated in this pool for this long,
Alone, but believing that there are others who are striking the same notes as I am,
Hidden and known to each other through separated spatio-temporality;
And now my call for paper asks you to break into my field
About the design of patterns and schemes of colors in her poetry…."
"Yes, those schemes are fascinating, and she mastered the art so well,
Changing the dynamic into the static, and struggled to stand boldly still
Against the power that pulls her in the uncannily familiar.
Still motion contains much more power, like a black hole, and finally…."
"You are right there. Losing balance, she slid into death,
And what we can learn is to find our way in and way out,
At the center of the dark vacuum, holding our breath to feel her and notre semblables.
To enter is to vow our faith, and to come out, as we have to, makes us
The cruelest betrayers to each other, but this we should have known before hand."
"To imagine those who enter without the least idea how to exit….
Faith becomes so blind that they do not know they are closer to traitors,
But it is no better to be a rationally passionate person."
"I’ve heard it said, Still water runs deep… and I am looking forward
To seeing you present. Btw, as the symposium convener and exhibition curator,
I need not speak in our panel, so you may take some of my time.
So take your time to elaborate."
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　2005 draft
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　May 22-25, 2009 revised

　　学术交流

——您的提议角度独特，肯定可以接受，
您是至今惟一论述她视觉层面的学者……
顺便问一句有点私人的问题，
您对此论题的兴趣已有多久？
——多谢欣赏，我的学位论文与此有关，
如果我能在年底按计划完成，那么就是四年。
——哦，四年多来，我一直浸泡在这个池中，
一个人，虽也曾设想有知音，隔着时空，
隐秘而滞后，却未敢期待相遇，而今
一个论文征集广告就能将你拉进我的领地……
啊，我现在满眼都是她诗歌中的图形构成与颜色配置……
——是啊，那些设计令人着迷，而她运筹帷幄，
一落笔就已化动为静，同时又要勇敢地站定，
抵御着那静态力量，免于自己被吸进那可怕的似曾相识之境……
静止的运动，蕴含着更强大的力量，像一个黑洞，最终……
——确实如此，失去了那种平衡，她便滑入死亡，
而我们能够学会的也只是要预先找到进路与出口，
在那黑暗的真空地带，屏住呼吸，感受她
感受被她吸引来的人，我们的同类；
进去，是宣誓我们对她的忠诚，
出来，我们都成为最冷酷的背叛者；
而这，我们早该预料得到。
——想到有那么多人，匆匆进入，而不知如何从那儿退出……
忠变成了愚，信变成盲，竟不知自己更接近于变节，
不过，理性化的激情也好不了多少，甚至更糟。
——是的，俗话说，静水流深。哦，我期待看到你；
顺便说一句， 作为主办人，我不必在专题小组发言，
因此你可以占用我的时间，细细阐释。
　　　　　　　　　　　　2009年5月25日