Fan Jinghua: To Speak Something

This is a poem rewritten on the preceding one entitled "Jargon"

　　To Speak Something
What we fantasize　haunts us like eternity　we are even unaware
Of this love　sadness is a cohabitant　life doesn’t necessitate
The mating of soul　love is its one-time sexual partner
To please and to be pleased are to blow solitude into the balloons
Of our body　to make ourselves bloated and
To echo the emptiness when we tap each other
A one should be a sure solo　I stand in my shadow　you take up yours
Nobody could enter another body with the body only
And leaves its shadow behind in its own bedroom
Even for an innocent nonpregnant woman　I am a lowly Tartuffe
Accustomed to hypocrisy　mental erection is intense and tries hard
To turn the direction of the penis　but this is like a pregnant woman
Who is allergic to semen and shy to become immunized
Through accumulative contact without penetration

　　有言

那是我们幻想着的　永恒永远萦回不去　我们甚至毫不自知
这样爱着　于是忧伤与爱情同居　而生活却不要求两情相悦
爱只是它的性伴侣　悦人与悦己　都只是将孤独
吹入我们皮囊的气球　令我们时时饱满　轻叩还传来空荡荡的回音
一个一个人本该形单影只　我占据着我的影子　你占据你的
我们谁都无法只带着肉身走进另一个人　将影子留在自己的卧房
即使在一个优雅的未孕妇看来　我也已恶俗不堪
习惯于虚伪　因而将自己的有心无胆镀成一种美德
这就好像孕妇因为精液过敏而患上了产前惊厥
要想免疫　其实只需要经常接触那液体　但不要插入式性爱
　　　　　　　　　　　2007年10月30日