The Narrow Road to the Deep North

　　　The Narrow Road to the Deep North

　　　　通向北方深处的窄道

the gold of the season oozes out of memory

pulsing through the inner

lightless worlds

a lone one on the road to the deep north

ballasts himself with a travelling bag

as the warmth of the earth retreats

这时节的金渗出记忆

漫过内部

无光的小小世界

旅人北去

以行囊维稳自己

大地的暖在退缩

  

***

they listen

I talk

in a foreign tongue

quite bored

we are all polite

modest

bored

I come only to elude

他们听着

我讲着

外文

甚觉无聊

我们都很礼貌

谦虚

无聊

我来只是为了躲逃

*** Deletable Poem I

bring your dog and lover along

to the balcony

just sitting there, no talking

regardless of the sun, the moon or the stars

but what he wants is to roam around

forgetting who is the dog being loved

who is the lover fallen in whose love

or who are fucking among themselves

　　可删的诗之一

带着你的狗与情人

去阳台

只是坐着

别管什么太阳、月亮或星星

可是他只想去流浪

忘记谁是被爱的狗

谁是情人，沉溺于谁的爱情

或者谁在自己操自己

***

on the lamppost stretches out a traffic lamp

on the lamppost hangs a sign:

"for teaching purpose only, no need to obey"

can life be conducted like this?

那根电线杆上横出一根交通灯

那根电线杆上写着

“教学设备     无需遵守”

人生可否如此

***

the chill wind is no bluer than the sky

gingko leaves on the ground, snuggling upon each other

I am certainly not the healing god they can look up to

I have no feeling

I am anything but a feeling body

no one can poke me up

sorry.... but should I let out some tears

in the late night?

风的冷没有天那么蓝

银杏叶在地上，层叠相依

而我当然不是它们可拜的神

我没有感觉

我什么都不愿感到

任谁也拨弄不起

Sorry...要不流点泪吧

当夜深时

*** Deletable Poem II

dear, let us desert each other

and be vagabonds

or at least let us pretend to be

until we no longer need to pretend

let us counter-desert each other

like Li Po

believing the born companions are never

emotionally bound

　　可删的诗之二

亲爱的，我们抛弃彼此

去流浪吧

起码假装能如此

直到我们无需再假装

我们反抛弃彼此吧

犹如李白

相信天生的友伴无需

以情感羁绊

***

for what we've acquainted, does it have

an original point we can turn to?

return? an advance or a retreat?

I am not a progressionist

I am merely lacking in joy

like air in the air

when in motion it presents as wind

when still it is no-wind

but tree leaves will fall as fallen leaves

in the season

like in its own season

相识之事有没有原点

可回？回，是进

还是退？我不是进步论者

我只是没有欢欣感

像空气在空气中

动是风，不动是无风

而树叶还是会落下

因为季节

也是它自己的年岁

***

space has no boundary

and when you come, and I come

sharing it becomes

demarcating

naming

defining

in here, illusionary fairness comes into being

in here, no anxiety for the need for action

no need to talk about love, passion, longing

no need to think of obsession, loss or gain

空间本无界

因你走来，我走来

共享变成

划界

命名

定义

这里有虚幻的公平

没有必须要有行动的焦虑

不说爱、情、念

不说执、舍、得

***

do I also need to periodically trash

myself? in this city, outside the hotel window

there are men and women I had studied with

by the same windows as boys and girls, now scattered

like duckweed, spaghettification-like existence

and I do not know

from which part does this I without me die and dissolve

是否也要定期trash自己

一次？曾经同窗的男孩女孩

皆萍散为男人女人

在此城，在这宾馆的窗外

世界弥漫着意大利面条化的消亡与存在

我不知道

没有我的我

从哪个部位化无

*** Deletable Poem III

there are a few subway stations

we pass and do not stop

as if this is a special train for the privileged

but it is because big shots are on the ground

afraid of being shot

like mice, we have to pass by

in the underground

here we are in contained air

there is neither smog nor

blue sky

　　可删的诗之三

将有几个地铁站

经而不停

令我有专程的享受

而实乃大人物在上面活动

害怕小人

我等鼠辈必须在地下钻过

当然下面是罐装的空气

没有雾霾，也没有

蓝天

***

there are boats on the man-made lake

the boats are rowing boring people

water has long since turned from boredom to banality

more people look through lens

but is this distanced? artistic? aestheticized?

water face is as pedestrian as cement face

人工湖上有船

在划着无聊的人

水早已开始从无聊变成无趣了

更多的人通过镜头看

这样就距离了吗、艺术了吗、审美了吗

水面和水泥路一样

***

in the north, it is a must to walk the avenue

the avenue grows lampposts

lampposts point to the moon

the moon is yellow

yellow causes palpitation

palpitation can be soothed only by walking the avenue

在北方必须走大街

大街上有灯柱

灯柱外有月亮

月亮很黄

黄得令人心慌

心慌时必须走北方的大街

*** Deletable Poem IV

the new fleshes crowd

in their alley in fresh looks

a cutie babe wears a big black spectacle frame

those squad in the old-fashion lavatory

shitting

to the eyes of everyone who comes to pee

like me

with a cigarette in my beak

peeing

without touching

my dick

　　可删的诗之四

小清新们攒动

在专属的巷子里

有美眉带着硕大的黑色眼镜框

蹲在老式公厕里

大便的人

一切都一目了然

我嘴里叼着烟

撒了尿

手没碰屌

***

for this season, we need

moderate coldness

to warm

the desolateness in our hearts

为了季节，我们

需要

适度的冷

给彼此的落寞加温

*** Deletable Poem V

there is a blue, called agape blue

there is a reunion, called agape reunion

scooped out of the mundane

only to be melted away

before that there is love to be fucked

a love that is lovable is not constant love

a fuck that is fuckable is constant fuck

　　可删的诗之五

有一种蓝，叫做愕然蓝

有一种聚，叫做愕然聚

从俗常中剐出来

只为了融化

在此之前，有一份爱有待操蛋

爱可爱非常爱

操可操乃常操

　　　　　　　2014年11月13-17日新加坡